Ideal is I to L

Hello my long-not-seen friends! “Wassup wassup” as my coach would say. “What’s the craic?” would be the phrase if we were in Belfast. “How you doin’” – if Joey wanted to hit on you. (It’s a good chance lol.) “How _are_ you?” is my go-to phrase after a hug. And I really would wait and…

Hurt by laughter

I don’t remember many things from when I was little but one of them sticks out: one evening, I must’ve been around 11-12, I decided to write a letter to the guy I had a crush on. I’m not sure why but either mum or her boyfriend at the time realised it wasn’t my usual…

Your gumption and generosity

Today is not about Being Seen. It’s about Giving Back. I have been resisting this idea for 2 days – it’s not what I decided, I would say. “This week is about stretching, it’s about me.” But where would I be without all of you? How could I be growing without your kindness watering my…

My forte and foible

“I told you they’d look!” “Let them!” “But… they will… SEE!” it whispers.  “See what?” “See us!” it starts to sound like Gollum in Lord of the Rings. “And?” “And then they’ll be cruel and think we’re ridiculous and they’ll hurt us!” (Yes, definitely Gollum. Where did this come from?)  “They can’t hurt us, Gollum.”…

Exhorted to the limelight – by a hat…

After the uncharacteristically warm days, I woke up to a cloudy, wet morning. Still not particularly cold but the undecisiveness of the weather called for a more cautious choice of clothes. I don’t own an umbrella and didn’t feel like wearing a hooded coat since it was still quite warm so I had just the…

Dare to be gentle

Last night I didn’t know what to tell you in this post. I didn’t do any of the major things I had planned against the fear of “Being Seen”. Then I was chatting to a friend about how she struggles with wanting to be perfect and I told her how she should lovingly embrace that…

To my clique

With today’s challenge I’m fulfilling the Being Seen objective not in one but two different ways at the same time (talk about over-achieving). I’m not only sharing my deepest thoughts but am also doing so in a (gasp!) video.  I’ve been dreading photos for a very long time and videos force me to face not just how…

Challenge of the week: B for Being seen 

It is often I wish I were invisible. Not for the superhero or curiosity reason – simply because it would be the ultimate hiding. It’s hard for me when people see me – I always think they judge me, and I always concur that it’s with good reason. (Nobody is as hard on me as…

Achievements and aspirations 

Since I started to focus on overcoming my sometimes crippling fears around the middle of February, I have been able to celebrate some wins. Step by step, week by week I am facing something I shied away from before. Gently, lovingly, sometimes shakily but I show up. Here’s what’s happened: Week 1: ✓ Kept a gratitude journal…

A to Z April: Facing my Fears

April is a queer little month. it can be full on spring with the sun shining, flowers blooming, birds chirping. Or it can be cold, windy, rainy and miserable. But whichever it is, it’s always the month of growth and change. The bare trees suddenly spring to life, providing green backdrop to the endless colours…